-- JD Dunivant
Sweet huh?? I am 28 years old and my brother still makes me cry.... this time in a good way ;)
Here's my story...
I came to JD and Jades house December 15th 2012... a day after I put my husband on a bus to deploy to Afghanistan. I've gone through quite a few tragic events in my short little life... but sending my husband to war was by far the hardest thing I've ever had to do, and brought so many tears. So many tears in fact, that I didn't arrive to Maryland (where my brother and sister in law live) until the day after my husband left because I had to get a hotel in North Carolina because I couldn't quit crying and could barely see the road.... but that's besides the point. I'm just painting the picture for you.
I got to Pax River, Maryland in the late afternoon and since my brother, SIL and nephew were at the gym for a coaches meeting I went there first. I was blown away. I had seen pictures.... but never in a million years did I think their gym was going to look that amazing. I was scared, overwhelmed, excited and just shocked that my brother... MY brother owned this big amazing place! (along with his awesome wife of course!) .
Right away I jumped into Jade and JD's lifestyle of eating Paleo and just constantly focusing on what I put in my mouth. After all, I had come to Maryland to lose weight and help with my sweet nephew Jackson. Andy and I want kids, but I was not about to try and get pregnant weighing almost 300 pounds! And by almost, I mean 299.5. Might as well have been 300 pounds! I didn't start Crossfit right away, I wanted to get the eating under control. I went through the "carb flu" like nobody's business because quite frankly, I ate like crap and my body was in shock. One day I was talking to Jennifer (one of the trainers at the gym) and we decided to go on a walk. Well... the gym is at the bottom of a hill... not a bad hill, just a hill.... but walking up that hill, I thought I was going to die! I was having a hard time breathing, I could have easily stopped and went back but I was not about to tell Jennifer that... after all, remember what I came here for. Jennifer then told me she had a weight problem as well (you would NEVER guess it... ) and encouraged me that it was possible. My goal was to lose 100 pounds before Andy got home... I don't set many goals in my life, but this one... I knew I wanted to overcome. We decided Jennifer would do my personal fundamentals and by the time I was done with that I would be able to attend classes. Umm.... excuse me? Classes? You mean... me? yup. She did mean me, and she was right... I finished my fundamentals and started my first class. There was NO way I would attend the 4:30 or 5:30 classes because those people were way too advanced and I could never keep up. Well, I'm here to tell you... that's not true. First of all, they don't give a crap about you. Not to sound mean, but really it's true. Everyone is there to work on themselves... they are the most amazing athletes but they are your cheerleaders too! I've had a few times where people have ran with me when I'm finishing a run, they've cheered me on when I'm trying to get a pull up, they burpee right along with me... Crossfit Pax has been AMAZING! Everyone loves everyone and it's really one big crossfit family! .... and I'm not just saying that because my brother runs the place. Ask anyone that goes there... it's how a gym should be. It's how our country should be!
I am constantly learning more and more about myself... I'm learning that I was an emotional eater. I'm a woman, that's just how we roll.... but one muffin is not worth it anymore. I find myself wanting some "bad food" sometimes, so I just sit down and say a prayer. Most of the time it's "Lord, please help me focus on you instead of this temporary fix... and if you REALLY want me to have this muffin, let me know". He doesn't. He wants me to be healthy and He will find a way to distract me. I'm actually believing my husband when he says he loves me for me... cuz let's face it, I might have had a pretty smile and nice eyes but that's about it! He really does (and did) think I was the most beautiful person. I'm so thankful for him and his encouragement all the way from "the sandbox". And I'm really starting to love myself again. I hated the way I looked, and life is just hard when you are always down on yourself. I'm humbled when I put on a smaller pair of jeans and really can't believe it sometimes... but being overweight made me who I was, and that I won't be upset about. I was never the popular person, but I was known for being nice. I was never voted "most beautiful" but I was voted "kindest"... I wish I would have taken care of myself and put myself first... but I was always so concerned about everyone else, because I just didn't think I was good enough. And that is ok, because that made me who I am. Size 24 or size 10... I always have, and always will strive to be that person that you want for a friend. It's just who I am.
So.. here's to halfway. 55 pounds down, 55 more to go.
Thank you to all my friends and family at Crossfit Pax.
Thank you to Jennifer, Darren, JD, Jade, Gibb and Stan... each of you have coached me, pushed me, encouraged me, and expected me to be great! I appreciate you more than you will ever know and can't wait to celebrate with you when I reach my goal!! :)
Thank you to the sweet members of CFP who always ask how Andy is doing, and always cheer me on! :)
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